When I was ill and feeling sorry for myself I experimented with different type of chocolaty food. I made shakes, muffins and brownies.
I don’t remember what exactly I put into muffins but I wasn’t impressed with the result.
So I moved onto brownies and I loved them. I made a batch with chopped pecans and a batch with raspberries. They were both fantastic.
Here’s the recipe:
Vegan Spelt Brownies:
1 cup spelt wholemeal flour
1/3 cup cocoa
1 tsp arrowroot starch
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp chia seeds
4 tsp water
1/2 cup almond milk
1/4 cup chopped vegan chocolate (if you can’t find it in a shop you can get it online)
2 tbsp coconut oil
1/2 cup date or maple syrup
nuts, chocolate chips or raspberries to add
- Start by preheating the oven to 180C. Mix chia seeds with water and leave for 15 minutes to form a gel.
- Mix dry ingredients in a bowl.
- Put almond milk, chocolate and coconut oil in a pot and slowly heat up to melt it, stirring constantly.
- Add date syrup and chia seeds into melted chocolate. Pour into the dry ingredients. Mix gently, pour onto the brownie form oiled and lined up with parching paper. Bake for 20 minutes.
Another bad thing happening on my birthday was finding out one of my idols, favourite writer and director had died.
I am talking about Andrzej Zulawski. Actually I mentioned his film, ‘Possession’, in my post few weeks ago.
I don’t know who I admired more – Zulawski the writer or Zulawski the director. As a writer he had a completely unique style of writing, different melody and structure of the sentences. I could just dive into his written world, and I always started talking the way he wrote after reading his book.
He came from a family of writers, and very fine ones too. In his work, both literature and film, he was always very honest, gutsy, bold, brave, gutty in a sense of a vigorous challenging quality. His films had a cult following, but he could never be wildly popular or appreciated as he was shaking you to the core, moving and touching something in you, bringing up subjects you didn’t want to think about, getting to your animal side by being very intellectual.
My favourite film will always be ‘Possession’ from 1981.
As I mentioned before, I don’t know why I was allowed to watch it,but I did, and it totally transformed me. The film is twisted and raw. In one of his books he wrote about the whole process of making the film, and how much of his own divorce and his first wife’s betrayal got into it.
Zulawski was an independent and unique artist. I used to see him at some of the film festivals I went to. I never really wanted to approach him him, as I am well aware that you should never meet your idols. But one day someone said to me; ‘Just talk to him, you could never have that opportunity again’. So I did. And maybe in some cases it’s better to stay away from your idols,but in Zulawski’s case, it will always be my greatest memory. I knew he would be in real life exactly like I imagined and more. He was courteous, intelligent and gracious. Somehow he redirected the conversation from his work to me, getting me to talk about myself. He knew my hometown (he wrote about it in one of his books), so we talked about my sleepy town, and the fact I studied philosophy like him, and many silly, not important things. I suppose writers have got that quality of getting you to talk and being in charge of any conversation. And being interested in people.
He will always be to me one of the Gods like David Bowie. Immortal in their art and our memories of them.